I have come to the conclusion that I am exceptionally bored with my reality. Long ago, I would say that "When I'm bored, I break things." Case in point, my social and romantic life.
I feel like there are many factors associated with this boredom, primarily because of the cold weather and the women I would choose to surround myself with are either A) across the country, B) over half an hour away, C) working until late at night, or D) homebodies busy with their own lives.
So what am I doing to circumvent these challenges?
A) I talk to my friends around the country on a fairly regular basis. Via text, via Facebook... etc.
B) I teach in the town where some of my friends live. I have begun to spend real time with them, and I am currently staying with one of these wonderful women for a week to help her clean her home to get ready for a baby shower this weekend. (Procrastination at its best; grammar, not so much.) I also plan to go to Indianapolis to visit another friend at the end of the month.
C) I have begun to go on walks and go to the gym with my friends in-town who work until late at night. I actually have plans next week to do Zumba with one of my teacher friends, and my baker friend. It will be phenomenal.
D) Oh wait, that's me... Refer to points A-C.
I spend so much time trying to work within the system I have created for myself that I am imploding. Or exploding, depending on who is around and what is going on.
I seek attention when I should be entertaining myself. I understand this is not a positive thing, and the entertainment measures have already been identified. My goal for this year was to do at least two things per week for myself, and I have been sorely lacking. Now's the time for me to actually DO this.
And by this, I mean fix my life. But right this second, I'm going to publish this so I don't forget. :)
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