Tuesday Lovin'

11:00am
I'll probably add to this later, but I wanted to just take a second to explain how awesome it is to do things out of love for another person. If nothing else, today I paid two overdue bills on my lunch break solely on the basis that I love my boyfriend and I know he appreciates not having to worry about those things.

Just saying. I need to go back to work now. I'm late. (But I don't care, because I feel like a little light inside me has turned back on!)


 7:05pm
(Several long, grueling, bitter-laughter-filled hours later...)

So I was thinking: This shouldn't be a "New Year's Resolution" thing. This should be a "New Sarah Resolution" thing. AND, what's more, I fully believe that doing something out of love for another person IS doing something for yourself. Or myself. Or whoever. This is largely because I know when I do something that I know benefits another person, I feel like I am on top of the world... and the person I do things for makes me feel good, too. For example (a throwback to good ol' IE)... I paid two bills today. I communicated with Dominick about the event to let him know what was going on, and we had really positive interaction throughout the day. I get home, I'm not even slightly mad that several people are at our house. Since I'm not mad, Dominick isn't mad. He even SAT next to me on the sofa while we finished supper. Do you know when the last time he VOLUNTEERED to sit next to ME on the sofa while we finished supper? Neither do I. Doesn't even matter that Knox is sitting on the other sofa and Gabe is playing Black Ops II; fact is, my boyfriend CHOSE to sit next to me. AND that absolutely made my night. AND, to top THAT off, I come in to talk to him while I am cooking dinner and he's taking the Love Language quiz like I asked him to do yesterday. (No judging on my caps, @ lEest I dUn tYpe Lyke diS! Ugh, that gave me a headache just TRYING to type that out...)

Seriously, I'm not trying to draw causation from correlation, but I feel like I had an active role in creating this evening.

On another note, I was thinking today about how to continue actively doing things to love myself. I found a very empowering meme earlier that says "Wake up. Kick ass. Repeat." I realized that's what I do try and accomplish every day, especially at work. I need to make sure to do it at home, too, but in a positive way. I considered coming home and putting on one of those clay spa masks... I still might. But I loved myself today by laughing at my frustration, telling a downtrodden coworker a funny story at my own expense, and making myself a delicious rum and juice drink to help get some of my meeting notes finished.

I still have some delicious rum drink left, so I think I'll start Household Task #2 of Tuesday Lovin': Laundry. I love clean clothes. And being able to walk in my room.